flush me down the bowl

moved again...

2008-04-29T17:56:00.001+07:00

Hi all...

If some of you still got lost and ended up on this site...

then..

http://geekypat.com

GO THERE GO THERE!

MOVED

2007-08-24T23:43:00.000+07:00

i don't like blogger
i move
i like to move it move it

http://pat.x10hosting.com

thank you thank you

numpang lewat

2007-08-14T10:38:00.000+07:00

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Banyak orang di dunia ini bertanya apa arti hidupnya. Ada yang mengukur arti hidupnya dengan uang. Orang lain mengukurnya dengan kesuksesan. Tapi kalau itu artinya hidup, apakah orang yang miskin dan papa tidak memiliki arti hidup? Orang kaya bisa jatuh miskin. Orang sehat bisa jatuh sakit. Orang terpandang bisa jadi hina. Saya juga bisa begitu. Anda juga bisa begitu. Apa yang sebenarnya menjadi arti hidup bagi manusia?

Mengundang teman2 sekalian untuk boleh hadir pada acara :

Philosophy of Life
240 North Bridge Road, lantai 5

Sabtu, tanggal 11,18,25 Agustus dan 1 September
Pk 17.00

Tidak ada makan gratis. Tidak ada band gratis. Tidak ada es krim gratis. Tapi kami menjamin akan ada Firman Tuhan yang diberitakan =)

Cya there!

Organized by : Gereja Reformed Injili Indonesia di Singapura
http://www.grii-singapore.org/

pattayaing bangkoking and kling!

2007-07-11T21:06:00.000+07:00

how's life everyone?

this blog looks so dead :P

so many things have occured for the past few weeks and being the lazy pat, i will have a hard time describing everything. So in summary, I'm back from Jakarta and I'm off to Thailand and Malaysia!

somehow I didn't feel as if I'm going Thailand for choir competition, it felt like a trip :P

oh ya, maybe i should update that my tummy is getting bigger too.
I ate so much nice Indonesian food

soto betawi
bakso
gado-gado
sate blora
kerupuk ikan ( it goes with everything )
sate padang
martabak
the nice bubur sukabumi with salty sauce and krupuk
....

and I have to come back to Singapore to face eating places, which happen to be the same everywhere.... Yong Tau Foo, chicken rice, dumpling noodle, nasi padang, .... enough already.

I watched harpot just now. I felt like doing a mission impossible scene just now when I had to rush from home to NUS, to comp cen, to forum, to chem eng department office, to bus stop, sweaty-sweaty, and in the end I got to rest inside the cinema. I think I look like orang gila just now.

Well, in the end I got to eat sushi (which I craved for so long already...). I'm happy :)

By the way, I found some old photos (well, not so old), which reminded me of MARITA! I wonder how she's doing right now back in Indo. I miss making fun of Sherly with her. MAROOOOOOOOO!!!

in front of Dunman High Hostel, after school, erlin with her awfully pink bag, both of them with ugly brown guitar bag... and I'm wondering whether we felt MALU doing that in front of the security guard.

Another ga tau malu pose, and hey, my uniforms are inherited from senior's one..

Smiling from ear to ear, inside a cab.. reminds me of how we always like to use our "magic hand" and waste our money by taking cabs

another sweet pose...

proof that we were so BOROS last time..

ah, I kinda miss the old times, but to think about it, time were spent rather carelessly, irresponsibly, and well, selfishly.

It's time to learn and move on.

yeay yeay celebration celebration!

2007-06-20T00:52:00.000+07:00

We are pleased to inform you that your accommodation application has been SELECTED.

You are offered to stay in:

PRINCE GEORGE'S PARK

Your room is:

BLK 7 #5-B
Unit Mailing Address #05-12-B

In other words, type A room!
Hurrah hurrah!
Aircon and attached bathroom!
Celebration!

I just hope I don't rot inside the room :P

Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, let the earth hear His voice!
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, let the people rejoice!

Dedicated To Connie Talbot

2007-06-19T12:19:00.000+07:00

Watch or Regret!
Hahaha...
I think I really DO like little kids
I was touched by her innocent voice, and I cried :p
(I even cried when I was watching Finding Nemo, so yes I'm weird)

cute

2007-06-13T21:44:00.000+07:00

I found some cute photos in my phone. Ahh. how I miss the kids in Pulau Kubung!
Being a kindergarten teacher there was indeed very difficult, very demanding, requiring a great deal of patience. I remember many fights, not just normal hit you here pinch you there but really the violent hostile pulling of hair, smack down, punch, kampung style! and also remember myself getting hit very hardly on my hand while trying to protect one kid from being beaten up by another kid. I remember teaching 11 kids and only 2 are listening. I remember all the crying to get attention and I have to carry more than 5 kids one by one, swinging them around like a plane to stop them from crying too much. Yusita even told me that I am strong :p. Well, this and that. However, their cuteness will just melt all the annoying and irritating side of them. This reminds me of what Pak Tong said about why there is so little love left in this world : because human beings just love to focus on the weaknesses of their counterparts, making it so difficult for them to love others. I love the kids (maybe because of their cuteness :p) and therefore continue to teach for 9 days! though the last day I almost died of exhaustion :p

What I like from Nodame (from Nodame Cantabile) is that eventhough she was pursuing music degree in university, her ambition is to be a kindergarten teacher, dedicating her time composing music for the kids. Seriously, I admire her. Rarely do kindergarten teachers get appreciation, acknowledgment from the kids (they just wanna play) or the parents (all the credits should go to them). Maybe instead they get all the blame when things go wrong.

Riko, the son of one of the teachers there
I think he is the cutest, but he likes to cry the most
He's kinda flirting with the photographer :p

The yellow stuff is railroad combined together.
The other stuff is Wesley, the guy who likes to fight
oh ya, he even asked me to be his girlfriend on the first day :p

This kid is forced to wear the railroad hat by the photographer :p

This is a kid gone crazy :p
Indra being "punished" after a game
he was asked to dance, and there you go
now people should understand why he is called "kakak angsa"

cool eh?

2007-06-03T11:42:00.000+07:00

I was rather irritated when I saw swearing words appearing on people’s msn nicks. “Trying to act holy”, “Stop being childish”, “Embrace freedom” or whatever it is people might reason, I remain irritated with sympathy. I was once there too. I thought saying or writing the f word in my blog sounds very cool and mature. Well, who doesn’t considering this post-modern world where everything that is unique, things that people are afraid of saying are things that are cool. COOL.

Who am I to write about all these when I was once the one who taught my friends how to pose for pictures with middlefingers on our hand, and saying the f word whenever a little anger surfaces in our head. Frankly, I know how it felt. I was once into pop/punk music : Blink182, good charlotte, sum41, etc etc. Doing what they do looked cool. Especially for a teenage girl like me who wished to be different from the rest. The opportunity to swear using our mouths seemed like wonderful chance for liberty and freedom of words. How cool? I say how stupid that is.

I was wrong to think that being able to swear equal to freedom of whatever I want to say. I failed to see that by saying or thinking that, I lost the freedom to use my mouth for what it is originally created for, the freedom to not curse, the freedom to stay pure in my mouth. I was then trapped inside the prison of swearing words and impolite acts, those things that I once thought were part of my “freedom”.

Well, so is freedom very relative then? To some people some things can be part of their freedom, but not to some others. As a Christian, I would say no. I would judge freedom from the point of view of my Creator. I would first consider what my mouth is created for, or even my whole body is created for. It is solely to reflect His glory. Then does using our mouths to swear reflect His glory? If my body parts cannot carry out and reach their goals, I’ll say that they are limited, they lost the freedom. When body parts are used to sin, it is the slave for sin. And slave just doesn’t have freedom, slaves can’t go against their master. To me then, freedom is the ability to enjoy God to the fullest.

I could still remember, a few years ago, when I reasoned with God to allow me to swear and live “wildly” by still being a Christian and keeping my spirituality intact : still going to church, still praying when I have time, still owning a bible, still asking God for help, not denying His presence. I didn’t consider the fact that God does not want lukewarm Christian. We have to choose whether we want to be on His side, or against Him. He said, “No servant can serve two masters. Either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other.” Being a christian means devoting our lives for His purpose, making Him our Master.

Lastly, I guess without realizing that evil is present and not just another illusion (like what it would want all of us to believe), it’s just too easy for men to fall. All we can see is that the world’s technology has advanced in an extremely rapid rate without realizing that the techniques the evil powers used have in the same way advanced too. Making us serve evil yet still leaving us feeling not guilty, providing us with excuses from this new-age and post-modern world, the power is ever increasing, not only the visible ones like violence all over the world, but more importantly corrupting the minds of people. How do we fight it, if not by the highest authority of all, the standard of all standards, His word?

This is just some thoughts of mine that I wish to write down before I forgot.

where have i gone

2007-05-13T22:10:00.000+07:00

*Listening to mahjong tiles being mixed around downstairs*
on a normal sunday night, a girl was packing her bag for some trip when she suddenly decided to blog...

pat doesn't grow lazy to blog. she just stops blogging here because she doesn't know what to blog anymore. she grew more and more in love with hymns and loved analyzing the lyrics and the music and somehow blogs it elsewhere. her life seems uninteresting compared to all those. by the way, you can find that blog of hers here

tomorrow she will leave singapore for mission trip to pulau kubung, that is her first mission trip. she hopes to learn more and at the same time understand things that are out of her comfort zone more. she's quite scared to be frank, from the small things like cockroaches to bigger ones like security, the boat, bla bla bla (tempted to say monster tho). but she believes that if God has put her in any situation, He will protect and give her strength to go through it. Thanks be to God.

today is mother's day. she's very touched by part of the sermon she heard today about love between husbands and wives. ian says it's nonsensical when someone claims to love without any reason. pak tong says there are love between couples which come from two sources, the man's love and the woman's love (or in some other specific cases, man and man or woman and woman, that's not the point tho) probably with different reasons and love between couples which comes from one source, the love of God above. How wonderful it is, she thought to her self.

she once thought that she could not leave the pat who likes to party, who likes to play a little bit too much, spend money like water, whose motto in life is "do it as long as you enjoy it". The thought of leaving that pat really kills her. she wanted to be a Christian but she just couldn't leave that life. but who knows what when knows how, it is anyhoo not hers but God's initiative. she starts leaving that "pat" behind, and surprisingly, she does it without any pain, or regret when she looks back. at times she hates her past self, but recently, she is thankful for the past. she is enjoying her life, not satisfying her own needs, not full of "pleasures" but really, joyfully walking with the Lord. and hopefully whatever ups whatever downs, readily saying "it is well with my soul".

she just came back from a camp, and she really did learn a lot. A LOT. though maybe out of the camp theme, but still, whatever happened, whatever faced her, she kept asking God, what is Your will? what do You want me to learn?

she's glad that she's 21 and living a fearing-God life.

she hopes to grow more like Christ and hopes that everyone can see the Joy, the Hope, the Love.

ps : i still love watching friends... i will miss them !

Thoughts

2007-05-03T00:09:00.000+07:00

Do not deceive yourselves. If any one of you thinks he is wise by the standards of this age, he should become a "fool" so that he may become wise.1 corinthians 3:18

FRIENDS are even more enjoyable @ exams period

2007-04-24T19:27:00.000+07:00

ROSS: [sigh]....I have to go to China.

JOEY: The country?

ROSS: No no, this big pile of dishes in my mom's breakfront. Do you guys know who Carl is?

CHANDLER: Uh, let's see... Alvin... Simon... Theodore.... no.

ROSS: Well, Rachel's having drinks with him tonight.

JOEY: Oh no! How can she do that when she's never shown any interest in you?!?

CHAN: Forget about her.

JOEY: He's right, man. Please. Move on. Go to China. Eat Chinese food.

CHANDLER: Of course there, they just call it food.

BWAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA...

innate funniness of friends, that is.

2007-04-14T12:53:00.000+07:00

Anxiety does not empty tomorrow of its sorrows,
but only empties today of its strength.
C.H. Spurgeon

O death, where is thy sting? O grave, where is thy victory?

2007-04-11T22:09:00.000+07:00

Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? As it is written: 'For your sake we face death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.' No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Romans 8:35-39

Got Plan?

2007-04-10T21:37:00.000+07:00

[scenes from The One With George Stephanopoulus]

Monica: You should feel great about yourself! You're doing this amazing independence thing!

Rachel: Monica, what is so amazing? I gave up, like, everything. And for what?

Phoebe: You are just like Jack.

Rachel: ...Jack from downstairs?

Phoebe: No, Jack and the Beanstalk.

Monica: Ah, the OTHER Jack.

Phoebe: Yeah, right! See, he gave up something, but then he got those magic beans. And then he woke up, and there was this, this big plant outside his window, full of possibilities and stuff.. And he lived in a village, and you live in the Village..

Rachel: Okay, but Pheebs, Pheebs, Jack gave up a cow, I gave up an orthodontist. Okay, I-I-I know, I know I didn't love him-

Phoebe: Oh, see, Jack did love the cow.

Rachel: But see, it was a plan. Y'know, it was clear. It was figured out, and now everything's just kinda like...

Phoebe: Floopy?

Rachel: Yeah.

Monica: So what, you're not the only one. I mean, half the time we don't know where we're going. You've just gotta figure at some point it's all gonna come together, and it's just gonna be... un-floopy.

Phoebe: Oh, like that's a word.

Rachel: Okay, but Monica, what if- what if it doesn't come together?

Monica: ...Pheebs?

Phoebe: Oh, well... 'cause.... you just... I don't like this question.

Rachel: Okay, see, see, you guys, what if we don't get magic beans? I mean, what if all we've got are.. beans?

I don't know why I find this part very funny

What's with Phoebe referring to Jack as if it's their good friends Jack but sadly her friends don't quite understand her, Jack from Jack and the beanstalk. It's just like Erlin and me talking to Irene, the exchange student from US and suddenly a name Joshua came up and I say "That's Rachel's boyfriend's name also". Irene thought it's our friend Rachel but it's actually Rachel from FRIENDS. Luckily Erlin understood.

I like Phoebe's floopy too. When you come to a moment when you're so lack of vocabularies, many of those moments, by the way. You just wished there are special words for that. I guess Sherly is good at it. Words can just splurt out but yeah, we understand, Sher. Though sometimes we do need time to adjust our ears :P

Potato - Potahto

Can I just live in the world of FRIENDS.
and not take my exams ?
and not do my MATLAB term assignment?

What if all I've got are ... beans ?

Pat Gone Mad
Pad Gone Mat
Gat Mone Pat
Mat Pone Gat
Tap Noge Dam
Apt Ogen Amd

Lalalalalalalalalala

The Curse of the Decision-Impaired

2007-04-09T19:49:00.000+07:00

Ah.

I think I'm a bit decision-impaired

Hello?
Hello?

Fanny and John : A Good Friday Post

2007-04-06T21:15:00.000+07:00

A conversation between John and Fanny

John : "Fanny"

Fanny : "Yes?"

John : "Do you think we'll recognize our friends in heaven?"

Fanny nods her head

Fanny : "John, that's not what you really want to know. You wonder how an old lady who has been blind all her life could even recognize one person, let alone her Lord and Savior. Well, John Sweney, I've given it a lot of thought and I don't think I'll have a problem. But if I do, when I get to heaven, I'm going to look around and when I see the one who I think is my Savior, I'm going to walk up to Him and say, 'May I see your hands?' When I see the nail prints in the hands of my Savior, then I'll know I've found my Jesus."

John : "Oh Fanny, can you repeat that story? It would make a great song! "

Fanny : "No thank you, I'm tired, I'm going to bed "

Well the next morning, bright and early, Fanny met John for breakfast and before they went their separate ways, she dictated these words to him:

When my life's work is ended and I cross the swelling tide,
When the bright and glorious morning I shall see,
I shall know my Redeemer when I reach the other side,
And His smile will be the first to welcome me.
I shall know Him, I shall know Him,
And redeemed by His side I shall stand;
I shall know Him, I shall know Him,
By the print of the nails in His hand.

Fanny is Fanny J. Crosby, the woman who's blind since ~~death~~ birth yet has written well over 8,000 hymns in her life time.

John is John R. Sweney, the music composer of this hymn "My Saviour First of All"

Good Friday is not just another holiday
'Tis a day of tears but joy at the same time
How can it be?
"Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends." John 15:13

This is the one of the piece by Mozart, part of Requiem which we sung for today's Good Friday.

Lacrimosa dies illa,
qua resurget ex favilla

judicandus homo reus -
Huic ergo parce, Deus.

Pie Jesu Domine,
dona eis requiem.

Amen.

That tearful day,
when from the ashes shall rise again

sinful man to be judged.
Therefore pardon him, o God.

Merciful Lord Jesus,
give them rest.

Amen.

To understand His love is to understand His sufferings on the cross.

Oh, Tuhan di Getsemani, penuh susah sedih
Ia tanggung s'gala dosaku, 'ku mau ingat slalu

When this song was sung, I saw the pianist, Shirleen, play with so much passion, so much energy, and I saw Pak Tong singing with all his heart, so sincerely. I could not help myself but to be greatly moved and touched. It was so great knowing everyone's giving their best for the similar purpose, which is only to glorify Him, to humble themselves in serving Him to the extent that when they play or sing, only His glory is eminent. Like John the Baptist one said about Jesus in John 3:30 "He must increase, but I must decrease."

in short, I had a great day today.
and I can't wait to sing again on Sunday :)

because I'm normal!

2007-04-05T19:04:00.000+07:00

Phoebe: I just went to my old apartment to get you the... the cookie recipe and the stupid fire burned it up!
Monica: No!!!! Why didn't you make a copy and... and keep it in a fireproof box, and keep it at least a hundred yards from the original?
Phoebe: Because ................... *pause, think and make faces* I'm normal!

Monica always reminds me of Sherly.
Sherly is greatly missed.
Reren is also, eventhough I just met her yesterday
Erlin, I met her too much.

I would like to be a Phoebe :)
I would be so happy to be able to mug Ross
I don't like Ross

Why am I commenting about a world which does not even exist!

I need help!

form and fire

2007-04-04T21:41:00.000+07:00

"What constraint, what limitation, what submission to form! Yet what passion and power and heart! There is no necessary contradiction between form and fire."
John Piper on the book of Lamentations

la la la

2007-03-27T01:44:00.001+07:00

Aoccdrnig to rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoatnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be at the rghit pclae. The rset can be a toatl mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit a porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe.

omurice

2007-03-15T23:37:00.000+07:00

Since there seem to be so much questions raised about omurice, I shall dedicate this post to enlighten people.

The omurice that I like, available in Takashimaya Food Court, in the Omurice Shop.

Curry Omurice Chicken Cutlet

According to a certain friend (it's reren), this is my perfect meal, thanks to :
1. Curry (how i love indian food just because of the curry, and how i love sukiya's ebi fry curry...)
2. Omelette (how i love ramly burger and kumar special bcos of the egg)
3. Fried rice (who doesn't like rice which is not plain white, but very tasteful?)
4. Chicken Cutlet (... the reason why my ulcers are multiplying...)

Johni says it does not look nice. He should really go to Takashimaya and try, you know.

Wikipedia says :

Omurice (Omu-raisu オムライス) is a contemporary Japanese dish consisting of an omelet made with fried rice. Its name is a portmanteau of the French word "omelette" and the English word "rice". It is a popular dish both commonly cooked at home and can be found at many western style diners and izakaya restaurants in Japan. It is also a popular dish in many restaurants in South Korea.

The dish typically consists of fried rice wrapped in a thin sheet of fried egg. The ingredients that flavor the rice vary. Often, the rice is fried with various meats (but typically chicken) and/or vegetables, and can be flavored with beef stock, ketchup, demi-glace white sauce or just salt and pepper. Sometimes, the rice is replaced with fried noodles, yakisoba, instead of fried rice, to make omusoba.

Omurice is said to have originated at a western style restaurant called Renga-tei in Tokyo's Ginza district around the turn of the 19th century.

The point of this post is:
Stop asking so much and go try it out for yourself!

Anyway,

I put this picture up to show that even insignificant peoples can enjoy omurice.
Oh ya, this is the one which the shaky-hand-uncle took.
Our table was directly beside the trash area. How unglam.

this should be out on 5th of march

2007-03-15T01:15:00.000+07:00

click on it for original version :)

sorry for the delay :p
but there you go, sher.

no more present for her then,everyone?

GYABO!
pat

happy belated birthday, Pat

2007-03-11T14:11:00.000+07:00

It's as if my own blog is wishing me a belated birthday.

I think I agree with sher's on the idea of birthday.
We've grown up. We are more satisfied with what we have.
Birthday day can be anything, but Thank God we are still alive.
And God's reminding us that our life span has decreased by one year.
"Stop wasting your time!"

My family forgot my birthday again.
For some people it might seem very sad
but, trust me, I am really okay with that.
Having them as family is already a great blessing to me.
His grace is indeed sufficient for me.

I thank all those who actually care to remember
and by their remembering, others are reminded.
Haha. It's actually no big deal, but still, a great joy.

I would also like to thank those who come for the choir concert.
A concert without proper audience will never be complete.
You people being there reminded me to give my best for God.

And lastly,
yesterday was great.
the omurice, the shaky-hand-cleaner-uncle taking our picture,
the girl with chocolate on her lips, she thought she looked fat in the picture,
the strawberry-super-creamy-not-created-for-four cake,
the violent search for strawberries inside the tiny cake,
the mrt, the no-handle-so-i-create-my-own-handle action,
the goodbyance in the mrt, the see-you-in-my-dreams,

For once I thought I lost that part of me.
It felt good to be childish again
To move weirdly, laugh incessantly, act as if we're living in our own world.
Though I know I have to grow up, and I am striving to grow,
but the mere few hours itself is a great present for my turning 21.

The Omurice

The Sher and The Pat

The picture that I would embarass us but I put it up anyway

No one can see the chocolate on sher's lips.
Learn your lesson, sher, stop drinking liquor.
You don't need them anyway :p

Joy
Joyous
Joying
Joyable
Joyance
Joyence
Joyer
Joyest
Joyee
Joey

I have nice friends.
As Baby Kangaroo Tribbiani would say :
They are humid prepossessing Homo Sapiens with full sized aortic pumps
(meaning They are warm, nice, people with big hearts )

Pat :)

what the...

2007-02-28T21:26:00.000+07:00

Module : CM1502
The test duration is 30 mins < t < 105 mins, up to you. Ending time is 11:45 am.

meaning :
30 mins : genius
45 mins : smart
60 mins : pretty okay
80 mins : not so okay
105 mins : too stupid

i guess i'll take 105 minutes.

lala chinese new year

2007-02-19T14:49:00.000+07:00

Chitter chatter around the room where families of different generations gathered.
They talked about all sorts of things (mostly gossips) and soon ran out of things to discuss.
They now looked for victims, those that have more probability of screwing up their lives.
They turned to this girl, who's been sitting down quietly, looked as if she was listening to their chattering intently but in fact was wondering why in the world would they waste their time on earth like that. They started asking questions, not to her, but more to her mom :

"Has she graduated?"
"No"
"Where's she studying? which year? what course?"
"Bla bla bla bla... "
"Got boyfriend already or not?"
"haha... no la, you introduce one to her loh"

and they soon saw her putting up her smiles, fake ones, of course.

THAT IS MY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

happy chinese new year everyone!

lalala...

oh ya, my hairdresser decided to change my hairstyle to his liking.
I hate it now.
But he and my mom likes it.
Maybe they should be the one having that hairstyle. LOL. :)

I can't wait to go back to Singapore !!!!
though I enjoy cheap stuff shopping over here :p

note to self : get food for erlin - shoofei, get pushwind for erlin - erlin.
what else?

above all... love

2007-02-14T22:27:00.000+07:00

my fake family

2007-02-14T11:09:00.000+07:00

says it all

2007-02-12T10:26:00.000+07:00

It Is Well With My Soul

2007-02-11T23:41:00.000+07:00

I would like to share the story of this hymn that I like.

It is Well with My Soul

This hymn's writer, Horatio Gates Spafford, had known peaceful and happy days as a successful young attorney in Chicago. He was the father of four lovely daughters. Then he experienced a series of calamities, beginning with the Great Chicago Fire of 1871, which wiped out much of the family's real estate investments.

Two years later, Spafford decided to lift the spirits of his family by taking them on a vacation to Europe. Interestingly, it is reported that shortly before leaving, the family attended a service in Chicago where Moody was preaching. At that meeting all four Spafford girls made personal professions of Christ as Savior.

In November of 1873, at the time of the family's scheduled departure, Horatio was detained unexpectedly by some urgent business matters, but he sent his wife and four daughters as planned on the ship Ville du Havre, promising to join them shortly in Europe. Halfway across the Atlantic Ocean, the ship was struck by an English vessel and sank in twelve minutes. All four of the Spafford daughters--Tanetta, Maggie, Annie, and Bessie--were among the 226 passengers who drowned. Mrs. Spafford was one of the few who were miraculously rescued. As Horatio was busily packing, there was a knock at the door, and he was handed a cable which read simply: "Saved alone. Your wife."

Horatio Spafford spent hour after hour on the deck of the ship carrying him to rejoin his sorrowing wife in Cardiff, Wales. It is said that when the ship passed the approximate area where his precious daughters had drowned, Spafford received sustaining comfort from God that enabled him to respond, "When sorrows like sea billows roll--whatever my lot, Thou hast taught me to say, it is well with my soul."

1. When peace, like a river,
attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot,
Thou hast taught me to know,
“It is well, it is well with my soul”

Chorus: It is well (it is well)
with my soul (with my soul)
It is well, it is well with my soul

2. Though Satan should buffet,
though trials should come,
Let this blest assurance control,
That Christ hath regarded
my helpless estate,
And hath shed His own blood for my soul.
(Repeat chorus)

3. My sin, oh the bliss
of this glorious thought!
My sin, not in part but the whole,
Is nailed to His cross,
and I bear it no more,
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!
(Repeat chorus)

4. And Lord haste the day
when the faith shall be sight,
The clouds be rolled back as a scroll;
The trump shall resound,
and the Lord shall descend,
Even so, it is well with my soul.
(Repeat chorus)

Wow.
I thought to myself, how furious will I be if I were him.
I would've asked God, "Why give when you will eventually take all my daughters away?"
This just shows how narrow-minded I am.
If I keep thinking about what I desire, what I expect, what makes me feels good, how do I then know what God wants in me.
I guess I need to keep striving such that what I want can be synchronized with His will.
Then, I can still say "It is well with my soul", just like Spafford, no matter what circumstances that God allows.

what's with me

2007-02-11T00:15:00.000+07:00

What a blog.

I realize that I find it increasingly more difficult to write on my blog.
I think I kept turning away from my blog.
But I think it can understand me, he's my bawahan (subordinate) anyway.

But.. there's another someone whom I kept turning away from. Losing my focus.

This someone showed me love when I was first very weak, when I was in darkness, when I was unfilial, when I was still his enemy. He brings me this weak, blind, unfilial, and rebellious girl to him and gracefully he turns me around such that now my back is not against him, but I'm now facing him. Sometimes, though, I can be weak and turn against him, hurt him again. However his actions do not exactly follow Newton Third's Law. Action-Reaction. He merely doesn't abandon me, eventhough he's hurt and furious. He forgives me again and again.

Why would he do that?

because when he first showed his love for me, I was still like extremely disgusting rubbish.
Now that I turn my back against him, and become like rubbish again, he does not leave me. Because he accepted me long before when I was this eey gooey rubbish.

I always wonder whether what I wrote made sense.
Sorry for my lack of vocabularies.

And yes,
I'm talking about my Father.

I am so unworthy. So so unworthy of his love.

Amazing love! How can it be,
That Thou, my God, shouldst die for me?

I do not need anymore princes on white horses for now I have someone who will give his life for me.

He left His Father’s throne above
So free, so infinite His grace—
Emptied Himself of all but love,
And bled for Adam’s helpless race:
’Tis mercy all, immense and free,
For O my God, it found out me!

Focus on Him!

Love so amazing, so divine
Demands my soul, my life, my all

Come what may

2007-02-04T21:09:00.000+07:00

God has said,
"Never will I leave you;
never will I forsake you."
So we say with confidence,
"The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid.
What can man do to me?" Hebrews 13:5-6

not leave
not forsake
confidence
helper
not afraid
invincible in Him

Smua baik... Smua baik...

2007-01-31T23:28:00.000+07:00

do click for larger image

ktb today is special
it has special celebration
it has long hymns singing (yet we love to repeat)
each got to choose their favourite hymns except shinta who's just too tired
in the end i helped her choose (in other words i can choose 2!)
be thou my vision, shinfei's
to God be the glory, erlin's
the old rugged cross, mine
near the cross, supposedly shinta's

i love the times spent in ktb
the learning, the laughter, the bond, the growth, the.. the..
again, what is this if not His grace?
and to even think of the first time i didn't like the idea of having a ktb
makes me realize all the more that being prejudice, most of the times, cause losses to us
i guess we should always learn to be more open, critically though
according to shinta, our ktb name is "bingung-bingung blur-blur"

so much for today
i regretted not taking pictures!
learn from mistakes, pat!

lalala...

yes, he has arrived.

2007-01-30T18:24:00.000+07:00

it has been exactly 1 week since he came into this world

okay...
that doesn't make sense
let's try again!

it is exactly 1 week since he came into my world

I guess it's normal to call it a "he" cos I'm straight.
I'm not like my ex-roommate whose straightness is questionable for naming her pc after a girl from an anime.
and I'm not like my noisy weird pinky-gold-haired friend who called a guy friend "she" or "my dog".
Yes, and why exactly am I typing all these I don't really understand.
I know it is totally unimportant and useless information but it seems like those two people I'm referring to are the only two people complaining about me not updating this pathetic little blog.

I guess there are times when you just don't have the time, you know

Well, back on to more serious stuff.

Macbook is here. It's white and it's certainly getting yellower day by day. However, the big,bigger,biggest,huge,whatever-bigger-than-huge point I get from the pc explosion will certainly be about self-control when it comes to time spent doing fruitless activities in front of my computer. I can think of THAT many occasions when I have to sleep late, miss lecture in the morning just because I indulged myself too much in meddling with this great invention of mankind. With no computer (yes, it was still there with a gosong power supply), there are just THAT many more useful things I can do, and the more I can achieve my goals of the day (me? goals of the day?no, I'm not kidding). However, who can deny that life in NUS without a computer will be hard. There just needs to be more self-control, knowing of priorities, and the right motivation in achieving the goals.

Quitted Sheares Enterprise. This is a rather simple yet long-winded process with negotiation, bargaining, pusing-pusing, and deciding at last. My priorities have changed and it is just hard to maintain this cca. Okay, I didn't finish what I started, I admit that I made a mistake in deciding to stay in the hall and eventually gotten myself in this pool of troubles and I made other people's lives harder to go by. As this limited-by-nature human, the most I can do is just to apologize and move on. Priorities, again. I remember the president asking me to consider staying and see my workloads as something I can enjoy, something I can have fun in, something I can make use of for my own interest. When ironically the thing that I'm trying to do now is to avoid my overly usage of "I want this, I want that" in doing anything. Now I know that He, should always, absolutely come first in every little thing that I do. Not what I can benefit from, but what He is happy about, what is His will. Pray not to ask for what I want, but to desire His will be done. And even knowing all these is His beautiful grace. How deep the love of God for us.

Okay, getting boring, more words, more sentences, more... I think I'll just stop here.
To end off, I shall show off the perfect bun. Done by a weird choir senior Joanne.

And to quote Winnie: "It's perfect like a scoop of giant ice cream"
Next time remember me while casting for the role of Ibu Kita Kartini whose name is Harum.

O Love that will not let me go,
I rest my weary soul in thee;
I give thee back the life I owe,
That in thine ocean depths its flow
May richer, fuller be.

O light that followest all my way,
I yield my flickering torch to thee;
My heart restores its borrowed ray,
That in thy sunshine’s blaze its day
May brighter, fairer be.

O Joy that seekest me through pain,
I cannot close my heart to thee;
I trace the rainbow through the rain,
And feel the promise is not vain,
That morn shall tearless be.

O Cross that liftest up my head,
I dare not ask to fly from thee;
I lay in dust life’s glory dead,
And from the ground there blossoms red
Life that shall endless be.

explosion aftermatch

2007-01-21T10:25:00.000+07:00

ok, quick post.

pat uses pc.
pc exploded.
pat is sad.
no more pc.

please be patient until macbook arrives.

sorry for the incovenience caused.

and no, i do not miss erlin anymore.

i miss erlin!

2007-01-07T19:51:00.000+07:00

i miss erlin!

Post-reading post and updates

2007-01-04T19:07:00.000+07:00

Greetings to the world!

I've just finished Yancey's What's So Amazing About Grace? yesterday. Not only has the book opened my eyes to how ungraceful people around the world is, it has also exposed the ungrace inside me. Yancey's point is that we should stop worrying about defining what grace is, but to actually put grace into practice. He had, however, come up with a pretty good definition of the concept grace :

Grace means there is nothing we can do to make God love us more... and grace means there is nothing we can do to make God love us less

There are many interesting points inside the book, but there is this one that I find laughable, and yet very much made the point :

Tony Compolo's provocative/prophetic ploy when speaking at Christian colleges.

"The United Nations reports that over ten thousand people starve to death each day, and most of you don't give a sh-- . However, what is even more tragic is that most of you are more concerned about the fact that I have said a bad word than you are about the ten thousand people dying today."

The responses prove his point: in nearly every case Tony got a letter from the chaplain or president of the college protesting his foul language. The letters never mentioned world hunger.

Ah, there's too much to the book that I wanna write. But probably not here.

Updates!

I'm currently staying at my brother's place near Clementi MRT until 8th January.
Yes, that's the date when I can move into Sheares again. Talking about Sheares, I am seriously thinking and wishing that I can quit the hall committees there. If I am gonna take 6 modules this semester (4 cores,1 sartor, and German *hopefully*) , alongside choir with it's concert VarsityVoices and the upcoming competition, and most importantly ISCF, I sincerely don't think I can cope.

And the thing about hall activities, to me, is that I really can't relate it to God in any way I could think of. Everything is for the glory of the hall. And for goodness' sake I don't even like what I'm doing there.

Sheares Enterprise: yes, at first it reminds me of SPARKS, all the ideas popping out, the friendship, the "lend a hand.. buy a pen.. for your friend!", the embarassment, the pain, the laughter, and most of all to have your quote and your name on the SPARKS booklet :p However, it is far too different and far too disappointing. I hate the fact that the real motive of all the 'charity works' is for the pride of the hall.
Sheares Link: I've been not in contact with them, missing out on the meetings due to choir practices. I heard from Erlin that this semester, the tasks are tougher. I personally have nothing against them. But again, I don't even feel like I fit in the hall, and I don't even want to stay there next year, I don't see a reason why I should sacrifice the time and energy for that. Ah, writing all that made myself sounds like a jerk, but that is really what I'm thinking.

Well, somehow it makes me think of how irresponsible I am as the member of those committees that I plan to quit. Irresponsible towards them. Furthermore, I should be prepared to accept the consequences of that irresponsibility: losing favours in their eyes, hostility maybe?.

Whatever that is, I am prepared. I guess I should start thinking and taking actions with a clearer vision, one that focuses solely on Him alone. I should be more concerned about being responsible to God rather than to men. I shall use the time freed to a better use. Do pray for me.

Pat, scared but found comfort in Him

guess who's back

2007-01-02T19:14:00.000+07:00

Guess who's back...
Back again...

lalala...

Merry Christmas..

Happy New Year..

I'm eventually back to the world of blogging
to the world where I am most weak at : writing

I'm also back from Genting,
4 boring days, 2 very headachey bus trip, and the usual non momentful new year's eve

Well, despite all that, I am still happy because I'm currently reading books that give me insights more than any books I've ever read. Oh yes, I was never interested in books . And eventhough I had a dry new year's eve : no celebration no champagne nothing, I am glad to enter this new year, to actually have a new year's resolution and to know that my Father is going through this year with me and I with Him.

Results are okay. Can be better. Semester 2, here I come!

Maybe I'll take German I.
Should I ?
Maybe I should

Currently I'm stuck to the book What's So Amazing About Grace? by Phillip Yancey. I got it from NUS library, it's rather thick and heavy. My mom kept complaining when she saw me bringing it everywhere. How I wish I can just stay home and read it all day. This cruel and unforgiving world really needs to learn about that amazing grace that saved a wreck like me.

"Christianity has always insisted that the cross we bear precedes the crown we wear"
Martin Luther King Jr.

To love and desire God with all my heart, all my strength, and all my understanding
and to hate and despise sin more than anything else in this world

Pat, signing off.

lalala...

2006-12-17T11:03:00.000+07:00

"Orang bodoh selalu membuang kesempatan ;
Orang biasa menunggu kesempatan ;
Orang yang pandai (bijaksana) mencari kesempatan."
pdt. dr. stephen tong

"Ajarkanlah kami menghitung hari-hari kami sedemikian,
hingga kami beroleh hati yang bijaksana"
mazmur 90:12

a moment of change

2006-12-12T23:28:00.000+07:00

I've just had a "madness" day full of rehearsals today.
From NUS all the way to Singapore American School in Woodlands and then to Newton and a dinner party at the organizer's house in Grange Rd.

Flagging for cabs at around 10ish is hell-ish,
especially when you are so weak and helpless.
Many, and I mean it, MANY empty cabs just pass you by,
waiting for 11pm to arrive when they charge you extra.
By the time we got our cab, which is near 11pm,
the head is spinning and even typing of sms seems so impossible.

Lalala...
Anyway, I still have to be thankful for everything that went right and everything that went wrong so we know that we have to make it right for tomorrow.

I want to highlight this rehearsal I had with Charito and some primary kids in Singapore American School. The song is called "A Moment of Change". It has some familiar tune to it, and it sounds like some normal Singapore national day songs. Well, it is really different singing with and without understanding the lyrics. Today's rehearsal is the first time I really see the powerful words in that song.

A Moment Of Change

All these moments of change that we are going through
In these trying and difficult times, it seems
There is no reason to just keep on living
In a world where troubles never end

Now when people grow cold, you find yourself alone
Take the time to try to find out that if
There's life then there is love
And there must be hope to make it real

Carry on, hold on to your dreams
Don't let your heart ever cease to beat with love
I believe someday, we'll come to see the light
A new beginning true peace in our life
When love will unite our children everywhere
Together bring new life into the world
Forevermore

There is hatred and fear, violence all around
There is little trace of kindness to be found
Though it's hard to face the truth
We need a real change
And a meaning to the reasons we are here

Through the sadness and pain
Let your heart see you through
Lift your eyes to the One who had taught us love
To call us out of darkness
Lead us into His wonderful light

I particularly like the bolded part
We've been so blinded by our living situation, by worldly riches and enjoyments that we forget to focus our eyes on God, our Light and to put our faith solely on Him.
Ah.. this reminds me of John Sung's account on Jairus' faith which I have yet to post.
Lalala...
Too tired already...
Waiting for the drier to finish drying tomorrow's costume.

Oh ya tomorrow's event is "A Christmas Gift", a charity concert sponsored by Barclays Capital in Esplanade Theatre Studio.

It's christmas time, time to celebrate, our newborn King
It's christmas time, hear the joybells ring, hear the angels sing
Hallelujah...

random thoughts... again...

2006-12-11T08:19:00.000+07:00

I'm currently reading Mere Christianity by CS Lewis while wondering what time I should head off to Singapore Conference Hall for my nus choir rehearsal for Voices of Harmony concert. The rehearsal will go from 6.30pm-10.30pm. Lalala...

Something I like from the book :

"But the Christian thinks any good he does comes from the Christ-life inside him. He does not think God will love us because we are good, but that God will make us good because He loves us; just as the roof of a greenhouse does not attract the sun because it is bright, but becomes bright because the sun shines on it. "

happy!

2006-12-09T20:52:00.000+07:00

lalala...

I've just bought a new study bible today

lalalala....

I can feel His blessings and care all over me every minute every day

Right after I bought that study bible, a friend showed me a book he was reading, a biography of John Sung, so I flipped it around, scanned for info here and there. Apparently, in the appendix which I happened to chance upon, there is his sermon on Mark 5:21-43. Coincidental, as my quiet time reading is on Mark as well.

But what struck me the most is the story about the woman who suffered from 12 year of bleeding sickness. How it applies to me so directly.

Sung compared the bleeding of the woman, with the leaking of our faith. How everytime we went for spiritually awakening sermon, our spirits will be all fired but as time passes, it will leak, gradually vanish just like the blood leaking out from the sick woman.

The woman believed that by a mere touch on Jesus' cloak, she would be healed. And yes, indeed she was healed after doing so. Sung made a relation again that we, whose spiritual fire is leaking, also need a touch of Jesus' cloak. For us, that cloak is God's Word, the Bible.

:) see... how can I not be amazed?

Sung further explained that although there were crowd pressing against Jesus at that moment, it is only when the woman touched His cloak that He could feel his power flowing into her. The significance of this is the difference between the sweet and gentle touch, a touch from a firm believer, someone who has strong faith and the rude pressings from the crowd.
Touching, or in this case, reading the bible is not merely reading as we flip through a textbook.
As how sweet and gentle the sick woman's touch is, our attitude towards reading the Bible should be one where our hearts are fully prepared to understand and enjoy His Words.

How wonderful yet mysterious, the way God works...

There is also a very very very interesting account on Jairus' faith as he asked Jesus to heal his dying daughter (mark 5:35-43) but I guess I'll leave that till the next entry.

I would like to end off with a quote I just pasted on my desk.
I made a wallpaper out of it as well.

"I believe in Christianity as I believe that the sun has risen. Not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else" c.s. lewis

pat did you know

2006-12-03T05:55:00.000+07:00

Mary Did You Know

Mary, did you know that your baby boy
Would someday walk on water?
Mary, did you know that your baby boy
Would save our sons and daughters?
Did you know, that your baby boy
Has come to make you new?
This child that you delivered, will soon deliver you

Mary, did you know that your baby boy
Will give sight to a blind man?
Mary, did you know that your baby boy
Will calm a storm with His hand?
Did you know that your baby boy
Has walked where angels trod?
When you've kissed your little baby
Then you've kissed the face of God

The blind will see, the deaf will hear
The dead will live again
The lame will leap, the dumb will speak
The praises of the Lamb

Mary, did you know that your baby boy
Is Lord of all creation?
Mary, did you know that your baby boy
WiIl one day rule the nations?
Did you know that your baby boy
Was heaven's perfect Lamb?
This sleepy child your holding
Is the great I Am

This is what Christmas should be about
Not worldly celebrations, parties, enjoyment, presents, santa claus ( who again? )
And writing it as 'X-mas' just undermines the real meaning of it
it's about the birth of Jesus Christ who eventually paid our sins throught the cross
not some X guy
Merry Christmas should be about the joy from knowing that God's promise is real
The Word has become flesh, good news, good news!
So what's Merry Xmas? joy about knowing the letter X? weird...

This dirty and corrupted world teaches us all the wrong things
Christmas is suppose to be about freeing us, the unworthies, from that kinda world
But, somehow we just prefer to live dirtily and corruptedly
Quoting Rachel Green, " Why would you do that to yourself, Why?Why?Why?Why? "

So what do you want for Christmas?

because for me I really don't need more to be thankful, I really need to be more thankful

Leaning on the everlasting arm,
pat

bleah

2006-11-30T19:20:00.000+07:00

i dont like my blog anymore

it needs changes

i need changes

the blog should grow up

pat should grow up

lalala...

exams are nearing

2006-11-17T05:38:00.000+07:00

the nearing of exams
the fast beatings of hearts
the nervousness
the fear both of being not nervous or too nervous

waking up early
drinking of coffee
peeing frequently
mugging hardly (trying to)
fighting laziness
killing evilness

every difficulty that i face
reminds me more and more of my Father
someone who i can fall back to
and who will help me stand on my feet again
not only is He kind and loving, He's righteous
and i wanna be just like little children
following Him.

i was once a lost sheep
and He's my sheperd
He left the many sheep he had
and ran back to find me,
the one that went astray.

"When my heart was grieved
and my spirit embittered,

I was senseless and ignorant;
I was a brute beast before you.

Yet I am always with you;
you hold me by my right hand.

You guide me with your counsel,
and afterward you will take me into glory.

Whom have I in heaven but you?
And earth has nothing I desire besides you.

My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever." psalm 73:21-26

merry merry christmasy stuff

2006-11-13T21:29:00.000+07:00

i'll be home after christmas!!
maybe... not
my mom and brothers can't make up their mind
im just a follower

going home also not that exciting la
but it will still mean something mah
maybe one thing that i won't be used to
someone who can bearly hear
but will keep asking me about my uni life
so old yet so strong memory about what course i'm taking

is that why i dont wanna go home?
fear that i will be reminded of the loss?

cmon pat
face it

hidup itu penuh dengan tantangan. ada tantangan kecil, ada tantangan besar, dan juga ada tantangan yang normal-normal saja. lalala.. hidup itu indah

random thoughts

2006-11-13T07:29:00.001+07:00

Oh what peace we often forfeit
Oh what needless pain we bear
All because we do not carry
Everything to God in prayer.

the blood will never lose its power

2006-11-12T10:12:00.000+07:00

Yesterday I went to my church's youth fellowship
Some ppl asked me why I suddenly went
"bcos persekutuan pemuda has the same initial as my name, patricia petrus"
After realizing how lame I am,
I came to think of the real reason why

a mere christian,
I didn't really pray all the time
I didn't really have quiet time at night
I led a rubbishy and garbagey life
I've never put God first
Pure selfishness
Fun first, Friends first and probably at that time boyfriend first
In short, a mind which is badly corrupted and dirtied with worldly things

I am grateful and blessed with friends from iscf, fellow ktbmates, and pak Tong who seemed to be scolding me all the time when he talked.
All in all, God was using them to wake me up
How great is His love for me,
that even after I have abandoned Him
He still looked for me
I once was lost, but now I am found...

I always did not want to go to pp
because I did not want to go there just to show face
without a teachable heart, i see no point
Now I have a reason to.

In fact,
now I have every reason to enjoy my life.

In joy or in pain,
blessed-filled-with-love-bride-of-a-King-pat

many

2006-11-09T21:04:00.000+07:00

"Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus. " (1Thes 5:16-18)

The time has come to re-organize self.
Lead a meaningful life.
Get the focus right.

Last week have been an exciting one.
With nite cycling, seeing people wearing the shirt that you designed.
And at the same time thinking to yourself how ugly it is on a white shirt.
And how the behind part is so big it's ugly.

Going tandem is really much better
Cycling alone, no one even know when you're lagging behind
At times like this you really appreciate what a company will make a small difference
Small but meaningful :)

It makes you think also, how friends are really essential
especially when you're away from your family
or you're not the kind who open up to your family
just because you don't want them to worry
but friends are there to lend a listening ear
eventhough most of the times they don't know what to respond
but deep deep deeeeep down, they care

Lastly, for some, it makes you think of God
when no one else is there for you
He'll always be there
and He cares
more than everyone else
He yearns for me to talk to Him
even when you hate yourself so much that you want to just die
He will still be there telling you not to
merely because His love for you is so deep and pure

and for all that, I am grateful and joyful.

special post

2006-11-05T06:16:00.000+07:00

lalalalalalala.......

what is this all about

2006-11-01T16:02:00.000+07:00

"To know him is the best thing of all. Because of him I have lost everything."

life is like your mouth
healthy and capable mouth waste food
ulcery mouth appreciate the wasted food
maybe i should say "my mouth" instead

have I ever wondered :
I slam my bones in this stressfull Singapura Maju for what?
Mug so hard for what?
Get so many ulcers for what?
Waste so much money for what?

Naaaahhhh
Don't think too much, Pat!
Soon or later you will understand
Just be patient

I look at myself
myself last year, the previous years
disgusted, regrets
If only I can redo everything all over again

But better than not realizing that at all right?

Life, Death.
what should I choose?
I don't know.
I can't decide between the two.

I guess I'll just live for now :)

you can do it, pat!

2006-10-28T18:07:00.000+07:00

yes i know it's not a good week
yes i know yes i know

pat pat pat pat pat
just like the poster on the wall
with a palm stamp and a "pat"

laughters
tears
first from others
latter from myself

you can make it through this

swollen lips, siapa takut?!?!!?

boku dake no madonna

reminds me how cute takki is

lalala

be strong be strong !!!

angels and heroes

2006-10-22T21:53:00.000+07:00

i really really really don't know what to blog

what i write are basically crap

what should i write then?

about how lately i've been pms-ing or rather.. ms-ing ?
easily bete, easily stressed, easily angered?

We don't need wings to be angels
We don't need reasons to be right
Your love makes us all better
That who we really are
Angels and heroes at heart
-Brian Littrell (backstreetboys)
pm me if you want the song haha.. :p

argh...
i hope i can keep going to lectures
i hope i can finish my work on time

i also hope that my life can be a blessing to others
especially those that i really care about

what a sudden change from complaining to being sentimental..
hahaha

i like choir practices
it's the only cca that i really like
why ya?
i dunno, cos maybe it's new to me
it's different...
and nice seniors. :p

and i think i've decided no hall life next year
yes i like the room and everything
but...
i think i'd rather spend time studying
or at least... spending time with friends
than useless stuff in hall
like pasting hearts on every door,
talk cock, persuade ppl do sign up for dbs debit card
this and that...

shud i stay? shud i not?

life is difficult

MAKE blog entries NOT WAR

2006-10-17T13:23:00.000+07:00

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately
and I realized I only think about useless matter
and then realized that I have empty brain
as the proverb said "Thong Empty Loud Soundnya"

As I think even deeper
and realized that I am a phantom in hall
which is equivalent to being an introvert
I come to a conclusion that I am an introvert with no brain

I think I just got a worst case scenario

I love talking about things that dont matter
and I suck at quality conversations

Typing the above sentences have proved useless too

bwahahahah who cares

well another start of a happy week
(:
besides certain people that always makes me smile...
I WOKE UP REAL EARLY TODAY!
6.30 AM !!! beat that tw0-weeks-ago-pat!

and a quick wrap up of the Nite Cycling recce
Yes, apparently I've gotten my chronic old-people-disease
whereby the wind seeps into the bones, especially joints of my legs
aiya, I know I'm weird la

apart from that and the wasir-like situation
where you have to lift up ur butt while cycling,
everytime you cycled pass a hump on the road.

nitecycling is fun
and please, it's not normal nitecycling
we use tandem bike
with the guy in front pedalling with his power and might,
no push no pedal just rock and roll can be applied.
but i have to sing doraemon, some dewa songs to him instead
and hear some creepy stories which will only scare ppl like me.

oh, God
let this week be smooth

My Wish

2006-10-11T23:13:00.000+07:00

I hope that days come easy and moments pass slow,
and each road leads you where you want to go,
and if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
and if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
if it's cold outside,
show the world the warmth of your smile,
more than anything, more than anything,

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it,
to your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more then you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but you never forget,
all the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
and you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
and you always give more then you take.

but More than anything, Yeah, and more than anything,

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it,
to your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more then you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

Download it :
My Wish
Rascal Flatts
Me and My Gang

withdrawal symptoms

2006-10-10T13:17:00.000+07:00

euphoria euphoria
too happy

but withdrawal syptoms
stupid cheers haven't restocked their eclipse

the only EMO post, i promise

2006-10-10T00:13:00.000+07:00

i feel 40 kinds of sadness when you're gone
Ryan Cabrera

haha..

I refuse to allow myself cry at all.
Just don't wanna go through some stupid mellow mode
Whatever it is, just be tough

I remember when my grandma passed away
I was still in primary school
I cried like mad during the funeral
though I understand very little about what's going on

Now that I've grown up
I have a better grasp of relationships among family members
I am just glad that I don't have to go through that same funeral all over again
It will just leave a really deep scar
Things happened too abruptly
I was planning not to go back to Medan for December holiday
but since I heard that he was hospitalized
I made up my mind to go back even for a week or two
I know he kept asking my parents when I will be back again
Now it's all just too late

I remember how he always acted as if he's very rich
and kept giving me pocket money to spend in Singapore
when in fact he had to ask for the money from my uncles/dad
I remember how he asked me to help him cut his toenails
man, they were really hard.
and I of course remember him as the one who taught me how to write my Chinese name
bleah, the more i thought about it the sadder I become

I am simply a coward to decide not to go back to see him for the very last time
just because of the fear of getting too emotional

Well, everything feels very unstable right now
and the last thing I need is for people to be mean to me

anyway i should sleep now
if i wanna wake up really early tomorrow

smile always :)
smiling is contagious
just keep smiling till your mouth like orang kena stroke :/

love is a wonderful thing
share love to people you care about
don't forget to share it to me

la la la la
:) :) :) :)

pat

when your tests is over alrd but you just cant sleep

2006-10-07T02:35:00.000+07:00

i could not sleep
im trying to run away from a lot of stuff

i heckcared the world
i heckcared monetary problems
dot dot dot...

some enlightenment in advance
pat's attitude in purchasing things that she like
look at it, try it on
think... it's too big but i like it
then..
i'll buy it next time
saw the right size one, hold on to it
shots of euphoria
cant stop smiling
i'll buy it when i get back
but deep inside i'll be too lazy to go back

but if she came to the stage where
money is no longer a problem
not because she has a lot of money
like some of the rens

flashback : prens-pat rens-reren ens-erlin ns-naisi sherly

but there will be time when you dont feel like thinking about what's happening in reality, so you just imagine you have overflowing money, and you must buy whatever you think nice

so it boils down to this:

yes im a yellow freak.. i want everything YELLOW

the bag and bottle wanted to take another picture, so i just let them lor

anyway, this is the shot of my room's door

really cant thank ron enough for these.
btw it's 101 reasons why i love you
each reason written on a piece of blue heart.

he's such a sweet person lar.

and of course

nothing beats spongebob.. with a thong!

so i decided to take a picture with him/her/it

and do my usual pretend-to-be-shocked look.

that's all for the day

2006-10-05T03:50:00.000+07:00

why?

oh i just tot of this

does erlin , reren and pat have friends outside the three of them?

1. all are phantoms in their hall
2. they are always seen together (hint: sheares supper)
3. do we really need a third reason?

okay...
ERP
it was first pateren
but i think think again
ERP... is cool
like.. where's she.. where's she.. where are they??
where are "ahh.. uhh.. erppp..."
of course you have three p's
patricia petrus paidjo
make fun of my name
im very happy

make fun of me
insult me
like some ppl always do

im happy
being who i am
what i am

but im not happy
im posting this stupid entry
when i have my material science test today at 6.30 pm

i shud really sleep now

signing off,
patricia petrus paidjo

you.. you..

2006-10-04T15:27:00.000+07:00

you're happy
you smile
you laugh
life's good

you're sad
you cry
you move on
life's good

ah.. THE POST

2006-09-30T17:52:00.000+07:00

this is DA post

gotham penthouse pat and cheekiang

er, pat, ren

sheares hall buaya week

she was very happy

she pretended to be shocked in the picture

thanks ronald :p

nus choir @swissotel

yes, that is the costume, yes i had changed

the indo ppl in nuschoir. winnie missing tho.
pat,ren,harris,eva,laura,johni,adit sby

to fill the emptiness

our weird yet GOOD alto-malay-speaking-senior joannel

time to think.. again

another wasted day

2006-09-28T03:37:00.000+07:00

i still believe it when you say
it's another wasted dayyy...
another wasted dayyy...

i know it's suppose to be perfect
but nothing here is perfect
i totally disregard my resolution to be discipline
and instead...

i woke up at 1pm
chat a little bit too much
went for NUS Dance Blast class,
went for dinner
went for Sheares Enterprise meeting,
went to zouk mambo ladies night,
and here i am now writing this blog
with no speck of MA1505 on my brain

and now i wanna cook indomie
and watch keroro

break is coming to an end...

mom is coming...

im already so dark how later she angry?
my room so messy how later she nags me?
nothing seems right how how how???

why everything must come same time one
stupid midbreak cannot break
stupid pat slack too much
stupid ctw position paper
stupid this stupid that
slap you all aaaa....

princess hilton

2006-09-25T14:36:00.000+07:00

okay

so for 1 week
i am princess hilton
a name chosen by me
just to make a certain love-pink-love-paris friend happy

eventhough the gods are crazy
eventhough the stars are blind
if you give me real life baby
i'll show you mine

okay i dont like that song... and so does many many other ppl :p

there happens to be this buaya week in sheares hall
like angel mortal game...
but this is to an extreme level..
very hard to describe
next time i'll post photos...
now still very lazy

but sadly
couldnt do as much for both my buaya and buayi
damn the two tests and that ctw assignment !!
couldn't really enjoy it

well,
i got a spongebob wearing a thong!

kopiko.. gantinya ngopi...

2006-09-24T01:46:00.000+07:00

what a very unimportant title i'm using today

life is better
no.
it's not.

i woke up at 5pm this ~~morning~~ afternoon

i wasted my saturday, the first day of my midterm break

i have so much to do
so much to catch up

i need to buck up on my Materials Science and Maths 1505

ah,
this and that.

dont think about that first la
enjoy life first
keep your brains kosong first.

reren's gone to kl
suddenly everything becomes so different
so weird... so quiet...
what?how?why?
dunno le.
just the feeling lor.

gigolo wannabe is a really funny japanese movie
can laugh until stomachache
and there are crying moments that cheat you
recommended for ... no-brainer ppl

just watched American Dreamz
with mandy moore hugh grant and all
it disgustingly SUCKED big time
this is coming out from someone who thot every movie is nice to watch

TESTS?
can safely say i flunked them.

assignment?
hmm... anyhow do and submit

lectures?
only attended 1 last week

tutorials?
only attended critical thinking and... that's it

choir?
missed 2 sessions

LIFE IS SO AMBURADUL

pat please make it right again

shoulder lean shoulder lean

2006-09-17T14:03:00.000+07:00

i hate waking up late
i hate the fact that i should wake up early

i hate sleeping late
i hate the fact that i should sleep early

let cha shoulder lean, jus let ya shoulder lean

In God's Hands

2006-09-16T20:39:00.000+07:00

I looked at your face I saw that all the love had died
I saw that we had forgotten to take the time
I, I saw that you couldn't care less about what you do
Couldn't care less about the lies
You couldn't find the time to cry

We forgot about love
We forgot about faith
We forgot about trust
We forgot about us

Now our love's floating out the window
Our love's floating out the back door
Our love's floating up in the sky in heaven
Where it began back in God's hands

You said that you had said all that you had to say
You said baby it's the end of the day
And we gave a lot but it wasn't enough
We got so tired that we just gave up

We didn't respect it
We went and neglected it
We didn't deserve it
But I never expected this

Our love floated out the window
Our love floated out the back door
Our love floated up in the sky to heaven
It's part of a plan
It's back in God's hands
Back in God's hands

It didn't last
It's a thing of the past
Oh we didn't understand
Just what we had
Oh I want it back
Just what we had
Oh I want it back

Nelly Furtado
Album : Loose

life is difficult™

2006-09-16T03:40:00.000+07:00

okay
two tests next week
one important assignment due on friday

why why why???

it has been a long time since i last felt so unprepared
but yet, still doing very little about it

this week is buaya week in sheares hall
well, it's like an angel mortal thingy...
but there's much more to it
let's just say now you cant see the metallic part of the lift
cos it is all pasted with love letters, names, weird stuff inside

i have a very nice buaya
and i've not been a very nice buaya
but im trying very hard
thanks to reren who had nothing to do with it
but still help me
and introduce keroro to me
he's so cute !

all in all,
please study pat
study!

bahahabwahahah
goodnight sweetheart :)

this is so funny

2006-09-13T01:49:00.000+07:00

for those who know me

tell me this is NOT me ..
i've taken this from
http://www.tuvy.com/entertainment/horoscope/fire_tiger.htm

Tiger people are sympathetic, kind, emotional, and sensitive.

At movies, they can cry their eyes out! Despite their kindness, they can be extremely short-tempered. The rage of Tigers is terrible to behold but it also gives them the adrenaline needed for the sublimest of bravery. The Tiger is also a deep thinker and can make the most astonishing intellectual connections, with great mental agility. On the negative side, they tend to be suspicious and a bit self-centered, OK selfish, and indecisive. Above everything, however, the Tiger stands as a supreme emblem of protection over human life, admirable always.

Soup and Oolong Tea are among the keys to good health.

You see the Fire Tiger across the room, making a very dramatic entrance. Suddenly you are mesmerized by the eloquent eyebrows, yes, eyebrows, of that very vital face. So expressive, this face is positively on fire!
Wait a bit longer and you will be caught up in hearing laughter that goes right through the bones and catches you up in it.
The Fire Tiger is a thrilling person to know, full of enthusiasm for every aspect of life, optimistic to the core. Even cloudy days are seen for what they are, simply vibrant grays on the verge of exploding into sunshine. Fire Tigers are leaders in the best sense of the word, honest and fair with everyone. They love being boss. Fire Tigers get over any financial difficulties they might encounter very quickly. Although they might not possess great fortunes, they certainly enjoy comforting financial security throughout their lives. The Charismatic Fire Tiger is full of charisma and has no trouble attracting love and finding lasting relationships. This Tiger loves to play and is enlivened by sensuality and passion.
To know Fire Tigers is to love Fire Tigers.

coughTHEsmoke

2006-09-10T04:37:00.000+07:00

okay,
i changed my perspective about gotham penthouse
thanks to the nice two DJs,
who came over to us about not believing we're uni student
esp the vietnamese-looking indonesian one
playing me promiscuous girl by Nelly Furtado
(typing on the phone and showing it to him)
love it to core, thx to an old friend now in Canada
who kept advertising it.
oh ya, and played reren My Hump by BEP
but i still hate the bouncers. i really do.
why?? it is better left unsaid
hint : last week engin bash, yesterday cap incident

so i was sick,
the antibody in my body is very low
dance a bit, hibernate a bit.
feel very sick after as reren might claim
"you kept drinking la.."
ya, i dont care if im sharing
i always drink according to my liking
so i got the stone "kena the batu"
when i got all dizzy

cheek performed for pharmacy
they didnt win
but i like their dance!
so zakki-ragdancewarmupy for what

i took a lot of pictures
both fake and faker smiles
both dark and not so dark ones
both two ppl and three ppl pics
both guy and girl friend
but im both lazy and too lazy to upload it here

too bad

i haven't ever finished one maths 1505 tutorial
im on my way screwing up my 1st sem

wake up wake up
on a saturday night

pat
clubbing is not about drinking
it's dancing with drunks

an early morning post

2006-09-09T11:21:00.000+07:00

please dont let the title cheat you people
it's 12 pm at noon
waiting for my dear friends to go out together at 11am
doesn't make any sense?
tell it to them.

well, i didnt wake up either. so peace peace.

life has been difficult
throat soaring
lungs coughing
head paining
stomach aching
everything has been so confusing

well, to make life less difficult
usually i watch friends in the room
BUT DVDROM IS SPOILT !
things could never get better...

until supper at sheares canteen
who can bear the smell of spicy fried rice ..
and a bottle of unglam grass power ?

well not exactly that one,
but that is what some glam ppl call unglam..
while sengfong-ing , or fongseng-ing

i have a new phone
and i snapped quite a number of pictures
yet, im still too lazy to blog photos

way way too weird

and to cheekiang ...
shake gotham penthouse down today !!!
along with that bouncer ...
we hate him.

okay,
life is difficult
yes
but it is even more difficult
without any friends around

patpatpatpatpatpatpatpatpatpat

mixITup

2006-09-06T02:02:00.000+07:00

here come the rojak post

pat is happy with the new phone
the old phone is with cheeks now
he's used to the american idiot
no cable, no new ringtone, too bad.

pat just ate supper
queued for 30++ mins
just to find out spicy fried rice habis
and she found chicken naan quite nice

devil wears prada is a unique show
especially with meryl streep
her gradual looking down action on andrea,the new emily
and i-dont-need-your-explanation "that's all"
acting, very good.

lovewrecked is a no-brainer movie
everything is so fake, but laughable
the typical i adore the cute rockstar
not my good friend the nerd
but when nerd turns cute
i'll run to him.
entertaining tho...
laughed a lot...
good laugh

fongseng / sengfong has been a norm
more money out more fat in
life is never fair
and... it is difficult too

walkie talkie low batt
so sadd

one thing i learn from these few weeks in uni
life is not that complicated
think simple
dont stress yourself thinking too much

life is simple
tho it's difficult and unfair

it is very simple

copy tutorials,
skip lectures,
anyhow do assignments,
die in the end.
as simple as that.

pat keeping it simple

at last

2006-09-04T00:46:00.000+07:00

a happy, but not so happy day
i got my new phone

why not so happy then? cos two friends of mine just lost their phones today. cheeks who got pickpocketed in JB... yet he still is cheerful, and my new found friend edwin who left it in a taxi. life is indeed difficult la.

early morning post

2006-09-02T05:16:00.000+07:00

i could never ever wake up at 6 am in the morning
today was quite special, cos i didn't sleep at all
probably bcos my hair was still wet
or im very excited about the fact that in another 6 hours
i will get my new phone.
and i shud keep telling myself not to get my hopes too high up
so as not to get disappointed... i disappoint vr easily

what happened at 12 am today should not be discussed any further
never let sad stuff ruin your day
all i know is i hate the gut of the guard outside gotham penthouse
we ended up going to MOS, cos it opens till 4am
hiphop/rnb then 70s then techno then hiphop/rnb
it was nice

"we're poor people over here who just wanted to have fun. i'm dead serious"

good news then
I won all my table tennis IBG matches
yeay!!!!!
and by I , i mean my partner won it for me.
hahaha.
but in the end the block still get 2nd place overall

another good news for myself :
i can tolerate more alcohol now !
at least that's what i thought
the level of hotness has gone down
im no more hot drunk girl !

and lastly
i have a multiply site !
i uploaded music videos and mp3s and some other favourite stuff of mine
so, do visit if you ... whatever you want...

life is difficult,
pat

sorry

2006-08-31T12:28:00.000+07:00

deepest apology to this blog !

abandoned...

pat is not busy,
she just didnt know what to update
she was too caught up with chatting on msn
or, maybe talking on walkie talkie with reren
or, all the interblockgames practices and games
or, she's sleeping, skipping lectures, late to tutorial

life is difficult
that's all she says
words just spurt out of her mouth
like a click of fingers

happy hari kemerdekaan for the malaysians
happy birthday to my neighbour,karen
who has conjunctivitis, so sad...
the Lord bless her and keep her...

today is the hall formal dinner,
she just didnt care
she's looking forward to more maggie goreng or spicy nasi goreng
food is now her first priority
but the neighbours kept asking for indomie

tutorials, assignments, ....
she's not ready for all those
she just wanna have fun
but soon she'll realize how much she missed out
and then she'll regret
but for now, she just doesnt give a damn

she went to arts bash, wasting 18 dollar
to very not nice music.
she wished the engin bash will be better
life is difficult, so many bashes to attend...

so meanwhile,
pls pity her.

zoukXperience

2006-08-19T01:55:00.000+07:00

okay this post is dedicated to yesterday
17 August 2006
Indonesian National Day

a lot of plannings to go to the embassy
to eat lontong, the krupuk-krupuk nice nice
then eat the indonesian fruits
and by eat i mean take two whole plateful
and dump everything in your expandable bag
(the best i've ever seen is ismi's one)
so we have even check which buses to go there
what time to wake up
who to ask
4 ppl for cab...

the night before it is our first skype night
conference call... fun...
erlin,irma slept
reren was doing her assignments
i couldnt sleep
so she sang the lulabby "top of the world"
and i fell asleep while she sang
she's good

the next morning...
9.05am woke up,
irma asked about going to embassy...
she was watching the live webcast of our Maths lecture
i thought sleeping is more satisfying...
and so everyone slept until 12 sth
and our plan was ruined
yeay!

the night was nussu bash @zouk
my first time there too.
only been to momo and mos mah.
music was good, not too squeezy, still got space to dance
tho was stepped on while dancing on the stairs
and stepped on by erlin
the exchange students are so fun
and we met ed, the british guy who watched kulinite without understanding a single thing
he was funny. a lot of the exchange students are very funny
one finished drinking, put the glass on the shirt pocket. bwahahah.
dancing with them are nice
they dont judge you, they just wanna have fun
that's the whole purpose of clubbing anyway
and thanks to djck, maybe he might not even know
i always use him as shield over weird guys
thankew thankew
the whole thing was really fun

but the day after was a disaster
neck pain,back pain,bone pain...
but all was worth it
mwahahhaha...

okay,
life has gotten a little bit more exciting
looking forward to further bashes
so on for what...
but money has drained quite fast as well
damn

pat
pat bobbed too much that day
stiff neck

what's with this laziness to update blog?

2006-08-15T14:11:00.000+07:00

whyWHYwhyWHYwhyWHY !?!?!?!!!

so... darn lazy to update this blog
the title is bored and confused
im still confused but at least im not bored anymore
i missed being bored!

life is so easier back then

lectures have started
i remembered those times when i complained how boring lectures in JC were
THIS IS EVEN WORSE
just close your eyes, and you're like.. gone to the lalaland

but good things are around too,
things like non-stop maggie goreng supper at the cheese prata shop
omigosh...
im really a maggie goreng addict
not eating for oneday got withdrawal effect one leh!
and if I order grass power for drink
tianglim and cheekiang would laugh laugh laugh
saying how unGLAM it is
im proud to be unglam!

sushi with the yeeww girl,her panda-looking friend and the stupid old lady tomorrow

im being mean
is a defense mechanism
to avoid uncomfortable situation

just like chandler
making jokes
when rachel is leaving, she wanted to hug him
but he felt uncomfortable, so he made farts sounds

nah...
im not that mean laaa

Im getting NUS Debit Card soon
and like the whole world also have it...
what the...

haha..
rain rain go away
make my laundry dry please
i have more yellow clothes now
thanks to the batik lita gave me
happily share the yellowness to my other white shirt
huhuhuhu...........
very sad
but since it's yellow,
it's okay lah...
i'll still wear it

pat
bob

pat
bob

pat
pat
pat

annusstudent

2006-08-10T02:39:00.000+07:00

i am now an nus student
i live in sheares hall

introduction :
patricia
A515
chem eng
indonesian
green
(name,room,faculty,nationality,traffic light)

ok
i really have a lot a lot a lot to write
but really can't think of anything now

been away from computer for quite a time
need to bid for modules right now
but...
really very mentally tired and sleepy

RAG in 2 days

life as an nus student
a shearite going through a shiok experience
at first i was an antisocial who knew noone in the hall
now i know a lot of ppl yeay ^^
like all my neighbours...
and the below, below and the below
now dreading the tutorials part

and again...
bidding !!!!!!!!
how how how????

wanted to go ica tmr
but didn't think i can wake up
should i just bring it to yih
and...
spend tomorrow relaxing?
kbox-ing with reren,eu,er etc etc?

life is full of question marks
life is this life is that
stop complaining about life
and live one to the fullest
but what is fullest?
what is life?
what ? whatt?? whattt???
just shut up

now you know how stressed i am now
oh stupid CORS!

the the the BEST DAY EVERRRR

2006-08-04T02:17:00.000+07:00

why is today the best day ever??

cos i got my matriculation card? no...
cos sheares hall orientation starts today? umm.. no
cos yesterday is a good day too? er... nooo

last few days have been so damn torturing
with my soundcard not working
me not being able to watch friends or even listening to music
the only music i can listen to is the KR ppl cheer
at 10 pm at night
so damn sad la

but but....
now my soundcard has revived
and did it all by myself
omg
im so proud of myself
i dont care what ppl think already

when the windows start and the music came out
that is like the sweetest music ever laaaa
and the feeling of listening to music again
simply indescribable
i love you, my sound card.
dont be jealous, i love you too my graphic card
and....
ya last but not least my 19" LCD, tho im not ur original owner
but you're mine now.

i wanted to sleep
but now with all the euphoria
i dont think i can anymore

hahahahhaha
hahahahahahahah
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

the heck with CORS
the heck with all those biddings
all you stress-makers

my soundcard has revived !!!

life is fun again.... with internet

2006-07-27T23:19:00.000+07:00

okay so internet problem is okay already

well, you actually need to have username and password to login
but...
let's just say my kind brother did magic to it
and
now i can use the internet here

hooray hooray
this is the only reason i wanna stay here instead of my brother's cosy airconed room
reren is coming tomorrow
she's staying in block A
hore hore
well, different hall but it's really close to each other

mwahahahhaha :D

anyway,
my room is still in a mess.
and i dun even wanna do anything about it.
the heck with my room !

bwahahhahaha

im hungry

at last

2006-07-26T20:58:00.000+07:00

after those few days of not wanting to stay in my room
the only problem : internet
now that everything's settled
im back in the room

eventho now im typing with a sucky keyboard
so hard press and yet if u press once a lot will come out
ask cindy, she's seen it.
and oh God i wasted 20bucks for this junk
where i can get a microft one for 28bucks
STUPIDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!
(the D came out on its own..)

i have so many things to do
but im just too lazy la

majuke singapura

2006-07-25T18:58:00.002+07:00

moved to singapore

life in singapore

aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

so many stresses
so little members of the friends list

i would have moved into sheares hall
the room is nice
my arrangement is very nice
the bedsheet is oh so damn nice
spongebob and patrick on bolster up and down
on pillow front and back
everything was happy a-okay

no friends around....
except for old ppl around...
so i stayed at my bro's place
so sad for whattttttttt

phew
packing and unpacking is stressful
very tiring, forgot to eat
dizzy sleepy and hungry

im too tired to join the orientation programme
i need some slack time

i need more shearesmates who live near

i want a huge LCD
i wanna sell my 15"LCD for 50$
i wanna buy new speakers
my old speakers are dirty and yellow ( not in a nice way )

we should stop spending money la

money kills ppl

pat

majuke singapura

2006-07-25T18:58:00.001+07:00

majuke singapura

2006-07-25T18:58:00.000+07:00

nidji

2006-07-20T23:56:00.000+07:00

nidji is an indonesian band that sounds awfully lot like cold play

i found the mp3s from this multiply site :
http://f1rm4n.multiply.com/music/item/222

they're coming to medan on saturday !!
but fat chance my mom's gonna let me go la
at night, at a club.

nvm
haha

been quite stressed these few days
but things are getting okay now
all glory and power to Him alone

im hungry now
and yet i cant eat anything
cos that moron my brother ate all my snacks
stupid stupid stupid !!!!

anyway
i kinda stopped playing seal
as in, maybe i go in for chitchatting
but for me to continue
meaning i have to buy another voucher to sell
and my brother kept nagging me for that
yup, i always waste money for games
like the coin machine game.
i just lost 100k rupiah yesterday
and many many more...
im just that terrible

im leaving on 24th, monday
my mom wants me to be with her on 23rd, a sunday
i hope you guys will wait for me to go medical checkup together ya!!!

heheh
gotta sleep early now
last jap lesson tomorrow
will miss her damn a lot
my gossip partner

bleh~

anyway :

'It's scandalous to suspend a player for having said something. It's the first time it's been done and it's only because Materazzi is Italian and because they wanted to justify the action of a great champion (Zidane) but who was in the wrong.'
Paolo Maldini on Materazzi being punished for provocating Zidane

it's true
this is the first time i've heard of it too
just because it's Zidane

bleh~

milan to go for UEFA cup !

Your Biggest Mistake

2006-07-19T21:12:00.000+07:00

What do you think inside your head (i wanna know)
so you think that this could end up (breaking you)

Your life is a timebomb set to explode
You talk out your ass and everyone knows
For once you should listen or care what i think
Or i'll be gone before you can blink

Everyones told you over and over again
Your making the biggest mistake of your life
Everyones told you
Everyone you left behind
Your making the biggest mistake of your life

Everyone knows that your afraid of (missing out)
And i know that its hard for you to (swallow down)
A world you created set to explode
You lie through your teeth and everyone knows
For once you should take what im willing to give
Or you'll stay stuck in the web that your trapped in

Everyones told you over and over again
Your making the biggest mistake of your life
Everyones told you
Everyone you left behind
Your making the biggest mistake of your life

It's a chance (what a chance)
you should take (you take)
And i know its not an easy one to make
You should trust the ones that are closest to you

Everyones told you over and over again
Your making the biggest mistake of your life
Everyones told you
Everyone you left behind
Your making the biggest mistake of your life

You've made the biggest mistake of your life

New Found Glory
Catalyst

help me tame the animal i have become

2006-07-17T19:28:00.000+07:00

pirates of the carribean 2 (poc2 as sum may say it)
i just love johnny depp
captain jack sparrow is so DAMN funny
kemocheng ngiap wan cekai chiu
(feather duster clipped by one arm)
as a medanese would say it
i would say it is a must-see show
thanks to all the funniness
besides all that,
the ending sucked
*spoiler mood*
i love johnny depp
and i hope he wont die
*sorry ppl*

anyway
im currently freaking out
thinking of the amount of stuff i should bring there
guitar and the amp will already kill my back
and indomie...
How do i live without you ( as leeann rimes would sing... )
i bet i have to leave 23rd early morning
cos my friend's family going there too
then can share the kgs...
but my mom wanted me to leave the next day
so she would bring me jalan-jalan that day
awwww....
i would really miss my family
tho im still vr pissed at my bro
10 years to go
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
no more freaking out panicking

10 years to go
im ready
what come may

photos with snow princess, aleph and lastly Kingofshaman!!!!!

A loaded god complex, cock it and pull it

2006-07-16T20:30:00.000+07:00

one more week to leaving this lala land....
mom will have no one to help her shop at carrefour
no one to push the really heavy trolley
no one to accompany her buy this and that
no one to gossip to anymore
cos guys just dont listen, dont appreciate.
haha :p

well,
i have gotten my SPONGEBOB BEDSHEET !!!
thanks to my kind mom..
eventho it's quite ex
around 800k rupiah
which is 160SGD
but it's on discount! 50%+20% so it's now 40SGD
hahaha...
she even wanted to buy me the bedcover
yes,
im a spongebob freak
i even took photo with friends in the studio
with a spongebob soft toy
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!

i've been going out quite a lot lately
suddenly when im soon leaving
friends come asking me out
so happy !! hehe...
including newfound friends from binjai, a city near medan
my mom's birth place

ok too much info
gotta go ..
gotta go

pat

i love being bored

2006-07-13T20:00:00.000+07:00

im so gonna miss being bored at home
bored and confused
just like the title

yes,
it's gonna be over soon
probably gonna go there on 23rd or 24th morning
then can go medical check up first thing first
cindy agreed to go together. yeay
who else going?? let's go be tortured together...

wew..
anyway
living in medan for 7++ months has made me able to take spicy food
well not the VERY spicy one
but at least improved
i can call myself an indonesian again. bwahaha

i am so happy
mom allowed me to buy 2 spongebob bowls and a cup with lid
and if possible, the bedsheets too!

well,
life's not been any good
cos that morooonniiccc internet connection's not giving me any face
kept disconnecting for GOD KNOWS how many times
as im typing this, it has been disconnected for at least 3 times

before you sleep,
dont forget to pray.
give thanks to Him,
count your blessings,
and pray for those
who needed it the most.
He listens.

God bless all of u reading this.

*jumping with excitement, screaming at the top of my lungs*

greatest moment

2006-07-10T16:03:00.000+07:00

marcello lippi, italian coach said "this is the greatest and most satisfying any football coach can ever had"

and i see sexiness in bald ppl
cannavaro and del piero
but not
barthez and zidane

and meanwhile french coach raymond domenech :
"The sending off of Zidane changed the match, that was the killing moment of the game."

i love dramas
just like 8 years ago
Zidane's headers decide which way the match goes
in 1998, 2 of his headers were turned into goals, he was a hero
in 2006, 1 of his headers turned into a red card, he was a disappointment

so much about world cup then.
oh ya lukas podolski of Germany won the best young player of world cup 2006
why not c.ronaldo?
cos podolski doesnt fake ,dives , run 40m to referee to get fellow MU teammate a punishment
and then after the sending off winked at the portuguese bench as if he had accomplished something.something evil

okay this should just be my last world cup entry.. hopefully

life has been great
jap lesson has been 80% gossip 20% lesson
chi lesson is held in a room so darn cold it's freezing
yet i still wear tanktops

i was posted to a YELLOW block in sheares!

why the world needs superman

2006-07-06T15:17:00.000+07:00

why the world needs superman

such a geeky yet oh-so-charming person
no bullet can destroy
and
he can FLY!!!!!!

oops
sorry for that stupid little crappy entry

life has been great
i've cancelled yet another jap lesson today
cos i can't sleep till 4am yesterday
life is so fun
but i pity my teacher tho

and so
it's italy vs france
after the great Zidane gave 1-0 win over Portugal
well talking about the Portuguese
they've got a great team
i like deco,ricardo,carvalho,ferreira,costinha,miguel,postiga and of course not to miss out figo
great players , and i truly respect them
well, except for that one kid i didnt mention
thanks to his super flying high ego
blaming the referee for making France win
well, a great player should just accept their lost with a big heart ba
and he thinks audience booed him because he's so DAMN GOOD
let me hear a boo for ronaldinho?pele?shevchenko?
NO? no boo? of course not
get a life, dude.
doing foolish stuff just make ppl think lesser of u

24th July collection of $200 allowance and matriculation package

so i have to get back by 23rd?

the real post

2006-07-04T23:31:00.000+07:00

update
i am this superduperly ignorant person
i did not know what "tag" means
until a friend woke me up
"you're gone from the blogging world for too long"

i just love what im doing now
sitting in front of the comp all day
killing cute monsters
selling and buying stuff
when im broke
i'll just sell my voucher to get 9million
im addicted
especially with so many friends
i feel so inferior,
so i strive to be better
it doesnt sound like a game anymore huh?

i am so hungry now
im waiting for 2 am to come
so that i can watch germany-italy
i hope italy can win
but it will be sad to see germany lose
may the lucky one wins
haha that's how it has been, right

btw, paris hilton had a crush on lukas podolski(germany)
she thinks he's cute
yea yea yea....

and i sorta cancelled my jap lesson tmr
so that i can wake up later
im such a jerk :p

i still have a medical check up to do
i have to find another surety
and........
i just need to relax right now

so now....
back to [scrubs]
and of course seal

i hate cristiano ronaldo
to the core
that idiotic extrajoss guy
YUCK!

a post of apology to reren

2006-07-04T18:49:00.000+07:00

ok ren, here we go

AWESOME PEOPLE I WOULD WANT TO MEET
1.Tom DeLonge of blink182, boxcarracer, angels and airwaves
2.Andriy Shevchenko i hope his english is good tho
3.Jose Mourinho !!! his awesomeness is beyond words
4.Phoebe Buffay ahhh please dont tell me she doesnt exist
5.Doraemon aku ingin begini aku ingin begitu .. ini ini itu itu banyak sekali...

PEOPLE/THINGS/ANIMAL I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT
1.members of family
2. certain friends
3. PC
4. squier stratocaster ( but it's fading away )
5. watch

I WISH I COULD
1. be content with whatever i have now
2. fly
3. sing well. cos i really like singing u know. but i suck la
4. have a really really nice handwriting
5. be VERY RICH to solve everything wrong in this world
(i'm contradicting my 1st wish .... whatever la hor)

I WANT
1. candy yes i do
2. a full karaoke set at home with complete songs original videos bleah
3. to live forever!!!!!!!!!!!
4. more hours for sleeping
5. very fast internet but cheap one.. RIGHT NOW

SONGS I THINK ARE AWESOME
1. Hymns
2. Smile like Monalisa - All4one
3. Have you ever really loved a woman - Chris Daughtry version
4. Yellowcard new album's songs
5. Letters to God - Boxcarracer

HOW I SEE MYSELF IN 10 YEARS
1. married ( so confident for what ... )
2. had a nice job
3. bye bye singapore?

RANDOM FACTS
1. watched FRIENDS all 10 seasons over and over again for 5-7 times alrd
2. just couldnt stand physical pain
3. and couldnt swallow medicine well
4. prefer digital watch with dates
5. suffered 10 years of ballet dancing, and yet i still suck

i am an ignorant person who's missing on the blog world. I AM SORRY LORRR

2006-07-02T01:13:00.000+07:00

Mark your confessions:
[*] I'm afraid of the quiet.
[*] I am really ticklish.(very the...)
[*] I'm afraid of the dark.
[*] I'm afraid of facing my back to open doors at night(im afraid of everything k)
[] I am homosexual.( i'd like to have the option tho )
[*] I believe in true love.
[] I've ran away from home.
[*] I listen to political music.( a bit of NOFX here antiflag there.. )
[*] I collect comic books.( a lot.. alot.. A LOT !! but not vr organized)
[] I shut others out when I'm sad.( i dun really understand this,so no comment)
[*] I stayed out all night.
[] I open up to others easily. ( im really bad at it)
[] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[*] I watch the news. (limited to sports news,everyday. eurosports channel)
[] I own over 5 rap CDs. (if albums in mp3, then it will be a star there)
[] I love Disney movies.( they sumhow give me headache..)
[] I am a sucker for green eyes.( my english really bad la, what's this?)
[] I don't kill bugs. (i wish they were extinct)
[*] I curse once in awhile.(but i reduce it alrd ok, good girl good girl)
[*] I have (had) "x"s in my screen name.(the name is cruxx)
[*] I've slipped and fell in public.(in a hurry to catch bus,on my way down the stairs)
[ ] I've slipped out a "lol" in a real conversation.( hell no)
[ ] I love Spam.
[ ] I bake well. (dun even dream abt it)
[ ] I have worn pajamas to class.
[] I have owned something from Abercrombie.
[] I have a job. (but i have a dream)
[*] Talked on a phone for 5+ hours. (with few minutes pauses for toiletbreaks)
[ ] I love Dr. Phil. (im gonna go with "who?")
[] I like someone. (nil)
[] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS. (aaahh it's killing my eyes)
[*] I am self-conscious.
[*] I love to laugh.(im just a "siaupo")
[*] I have tried alcohol. (my mom even forced me to drink)
[] I drink alcohol on a regular basis.
[] I have tried a cigarette. (tsk tsk tsk )
[] I have smoked a pack in one day.(what the..)
[] I loved Lord of the Flies. (!?!?@#$?@#$?@!)
[] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.( only kids' panadol, so sweet so nice
[*] I can't swallow pills.(THIS IS SO DESCRIBING ME)
[] I have a few scars.
[*] I've been out of this country.
[] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[*] I love chocolate.(beng-beng!)

[ ] I bite my nails.
[ ] I am not comfortable with being me.
[*****] I play computer games when I'm bored.(5 star statement)
[*] Gotten lost in the city. (the city of Tokyo)
[] Thought of suicide before.
[] Seen a shooting star.
[] Had a serious surgery.
[] Gone out in public in your pajamas.
[] Have kissed a stranger.
[*] Hugged a stranger.(new year's eve celebration)
[ ] Been in a bloody fist fight with someone of the same sex.
[*]Been in a fist fight.(with a boy who insulted my lil bro when i was in primary sch)
[ ] Been arrested.
[] Laughed and had some type of beverage come out of your nose.
[*] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator.(and it got stuck .. no more nxt time)
[ ] Made out in an elevator.
[ ] Swore at your parents.(really really against it)
[] Kicked a guy where it hurts on purpose.(im a kind person)
[ ] Been skydiving.
[ ] Been bungee jumping.
[*] Gotten stiches.(and a lot of fake ones during PE ask erlin,the expert)
[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.(joey can do that in 1 minute i think)
[] Bitten someone.(my sis is victim to my torture)
[ ] Been to Niagara Falls.
[*] Gotten the chicken pox.(long time ago)
[ ] Crashed into a car.
[*] Been to Japan.(tanoshii!!)
[*] Ridden in a taxi.(even the limousines for lots of times)
[ ] Shoplifted.
[ ] Been fired.
[] Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
[] Stole something from your job.
[] Gone on a blind date.
[ ] Had a crush on a teacher/coach.
[ ] Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] Been to Europe.
[ ] Slept with a co-worker.
[] Been married.
[ ] Gotten divorced.
[*] Saw someone/something dying.(hostelmate fell from 5th floor,but later survived)
[ ] Driven over 400 miles in one day.
[ ] Been to Canada.
[*] Been on a plane.
[ ] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[ ] Thrown up in a bar.
[*] Eaten sushi.(duh)
[] Been snowboarding.
[] Been skiing.
[*] Been ice skating.( I SUCK AT IT)
[] Cried in public.
[ ] Walked purposely into traffic with your eyes closed.
[] Liked someone even though you knew you shouldn't have.
[] Thought of someone almost 24/7.
[] Hate the world. (world peace. peace on earth. peace.peace.peace)

and now i shall pass the mindless irritant to someone else
i tag:
alice
cindy
erlin
fuichin
michelle
reren
shinfei

[scrubs]

2006-06-27T15:47:00.000+07:00

yes im watching [scrubs]
with my stomachache
and my headache
and my huge ulcer
(yes i know im born with ulcer as a permanent disease)

life has been great
woke up really really late
go for chinese lessons
play online games
and watch [scrubs]
and watch world cup matches
woohoo!
yes i love watching football
but im not gonna deny
i love watching the cute guys there :p
and since germany(the country) is so hot
most of the european footballers had their hair cut short
everything is oh so wonderful
and of course sleep real late

oh well,
life is not eaaseeyyyy
silence is easyyyyy

nvm me
sometimes i've got nth to blog about
i just crap
i live i life full of craps
bwaaaaaaaaaahahahahhahaaaa

and
if er, fuichin or shinfei is reading this
WE SHUD TOTALLY GO PARA2 again!!!
i kept getting As u know....

haha
see
crap

bye

bleiahfelaefe

2006-06-23T00:28:00.000+07:00

thx er,sher,stan,vino,and.... is that all?
for this

haha..
all you FRIENDS maniac
prepare for the challenge!!!!!!

and...
i got into SHEARES
aiya pls tell me i have friends there !!!

and..
what else to update

im back from singapore
i have a huge ulcer

world cup fever is on
england is so disappointing
brazil so much pressure
shevchenko cut his hair
check david villa out
my bro thinks he's cute
cristiano ronaldo is #1 footballer gay figure
john terry is amazing

what else shud i say
im hungry
and...
i shud be sleeping by now
but i slept too much in the afternoon
thanks to the more than 10 hours lights off
and the broken generator

oh ya
i watched x-men two times
once in jakarta
and another time in singapore
both around rp.60.000
thanks to my lil bro
who kept forcing me to watch it in suntec
aiyohh

ok la that's all
when shud i go back to singapore?

forgot to update

2006-06-10T00:51:00.000+07:00

when im addicted to something
it's so extreme what
ask anyone who knows me

back in junior high school
when i like westlife
i will force ppl to sing the songs
i will print out their photos and give to friends
ppl like sher
and lyrics give to teacher
then teacher will ask sum1 to write on the whiteboard
and the whole class sing together

the thought of it...
so sickening :S

anyway,
i forgot to post new entry
cos im tempted to play the online game SEAL
tempted by a friend, let's call her reren.
ya that's her name la.
so im so busy playing the game
i forgot about everything else

ok ...
and...........
i'll be going singapore 13-21
confirmed
ferry to singapore
cruise singapore back to singapore
hopefully can meet some friends there :)

well,
life's fun..
live fast
die fun
famous stars and stripes

angels and airwaves

2006-06-05T17:10:00.001+07:00

it was NUS or NTU back then

after deciding to suffer for another 10 FAT years
in NUS with that green frog scholarship
6000+2000+7000=15000 per annum
times 4 = 60000SGD for additional 3 years
when it can be reduced to 7 notsoFAT years
in NTU with the less-money-scholarship
and regret later haha
ubt i just thot that was it , you know
no more headache

but NO NO NO
stress just wont let you off easy

now what hostel? kent ridge? sheares? PGP?
how's this? not confirmed but...

what cca? what to do? what medical checkup?when?how?
gosh there are really lots of stuff

and uncomfort knowing that your exroomie is going NTU
and and and...
at first you thought com engineering is computer engineering

and you're listening to angels and airwaves' adventure
and thought that tom delonge is always good

and next thing you know?
you've digressed so far
no more uni talk

ear candies baby

2006-06-04T00:38:00.000+07:00

okay, i got bored and i surfed and well...
to be frank i can't really download any mp3s cos my internet connection is using per byte rate
and not unlimited too...
so, if you were lucky enough to drop by my blog
and... you happen to not have any of the listed songs
feel free to download
i stole it from somewhere anyweh
bwahhahahah

Stupid Girls (Main)	Stupid Girls	Pink	Download
Unfaithful	A Girl Like Me	Rihanna	Download
If I Were You	Every Man For Himself	Hoobastank	Download
One (Radio Edit)	One	Mary J Blige & U2	Download
Dani California	Stadium Arcadium	Red Hot Chili Peppers	Download

A Little Less Sixteen Candles, A Little More "Touch Me"	From Under The Cork Tree	Fall Out Boy	Download
Ms. New Booty		Ying Yang Twins	Download
Savin' Me	All The Right Reasons	Nickelback	Download
4ever	The Veronicas Secret	The Veronicas	Download
If I Were You	Every Man For Himself	Hoobastank	Download
Button	PCD	PCD	Download
Miss Murder	December underground	AFI	Download
When You're Mad	In My Own Words	Ne-Yo	Download

and these are some indonesian songs

So Special	OST Gue Kapok Jatuh Cinta	Oka ft Sabria	Download
Child	Breakthru	Nidji	Download
Kepastian Yang Kutunggu	Next Chapter	GIGI	Download
BBC (Benci Bilang Cinta)	Aku Ada Karena Kau Ada	Radja	Download
Karena Wanita (Ingin Dimengerti)	Romantic Rhapsody	Ada Band	Download
Bdg 19 Okt	Heart Rock	Seurieus	Download
Audy - Untuk Sahabat			Download
Selimut Hati	Republik Cinta	Dewa 19	Download
Aku, Dirimu, Dirinya	Soulmate	Kahitna	Download
Gadisku	Repackage	Ello	Download

Izinkan Aku Menyayangimu

Iwan Fals

Download

i am stupid

2006-06-03T14:20:00.000+07:00

idoitic, never a mispell it's meant to be written that way

ndrsn :
cici, perang saudara e engbun ami ho?
(sis, what is perang saudara in english?)
cici :
emcai loh, brotherhood war si bo?
(dunno leh, is it brotherhood war?)
ndrsn :
si civil war bo?
(isit civil war?)
cici :
emsi la, mana kholeng!
(no la, impossible)
ndrsn :
wa khua kamus sia e loh
(i saw it in the dictionary)
cici :
hio?? perang saudara si ami lai?
(really?? what is perang saudara?)
ndrsn :
ma perang wan cekai kok ke laibin loh
(that is a war inside a country)
cici :
si lo! wa baru cai, dari kuca siokong si cin2 saudara2 siophak
(oh gosh! i just knew, i thot it's really brothery war)
ndrsn :
ane gong e lu!
(you are so stupid!)

gambar2

2006-06-02T18:58:00.000+07:00

me, mrs. kay and erlin
wah... didnt think i'll meet her again
so this pic should be treasured like forever haha
too bad couldn't find mrs.leong lah
why are my eyes so damn small??

okay now i think this pic with the plagues is a bit yucky
sorry la still have to post this pic la
only took 3 pics then how?

i grew fatter

im not proud of this photo
it's just that that girl kept asking me to upload this pic
sigh.
okay tricky question
where is the guy's left hand?
maybe... on her bb?
we'll let your imagination play this game

let love lead the way
(the above line is rubbish)

no magic. it's real

2006-06-01T17:05:00.000+07:00

http://www.thesurrealist.co.uk/slogan.cgi

im back yes i am

2006-06-01T16:08:00.000+07:00

1 week gone so many things happened

i wasted money on the coin machines in medan,again

stayed in cindy's house with her tall families
father mother very nice and warm
brother very quiet but very tall
im like the shortest there n
o, the maid is the shortest until lita came and became the shortest ever
no.. then there's dwee
she's definitely the shortest
too bad la

girls should learn to wear heels
i wear shoes enough la. heels are stupid
pretend to laugh when you're in pain
just like monica geller

dufan is the same
the same smelly hot crowded naked kids running all over place
let's go dufan
jakarta theme park with weird names
korokoro,pontang-pontang,ontang-anting, bla bla bla
everything there makes you puke
all round and round and repeated and round
but the thing i like the most about dufan is
POPMIE !!!

3 days at cindy's house and
boom im at bandung with mama-mama
too many factory outlets too little time
jakarta with my mom is killing me softly
1 day, 3 malls, 4 ZARAs
maybe now i can memorize ZARA's clothes
my feet even painer than the day after MOS

yesterday GARUDA delayed my flight from 6pm to 10pm
arrived in medan 12 am
im sick
im nauseous
i kept looking at the kamun (kantong muntah)
there are all these mental images of
what-to-dos in case i really puke
what made it worse, a smelly man beside me
with ipod nano, like singing in the shower
i felt like puking in his face
but nothing happened
and at last i smellily sleep on my bed

deepest condolonces to quake victims at yogyakarta and middle java
my mom was in semarang when the quake happened
it was quite scary too, she said
and next thing in the morning she did, she went to candi borobuddur
ok la it's not damaged or what
but it's still so scary laaa !!
so many ppl donated their money
yet so many ppl do corruption
victims on tv, so angered that they haven't received anything
so much money, so much indomie but no place to live
it's so damn saddening

my left eye is red for many days
the vein a bit broke and bleed
my friend told me her friend went blind temporarily
because the blood blocked her view
im so going to the doctor la

so many things to say so little time

nus or ntu ?

congrats er on being baptized
back then i was immersed, and the water went into my nose
so i didnt have time to get all emotional
anyweh, YOU'RE A NEW PERSON NOW!
we can now do the perjamuan kudus together. hore!

congrats sher being er's colleague
you're so mean, you quit when i left
nvm then
haha :)

im sick of going to lessons
SICK SICK SICK !!!!!!!!!!